jut couldnt seem to get bettfucking fact it wont..and i know that all this shit will carry on til tomorrow.soo why was today sooo bad..hmm
lets see i wake up late and im in a rush to work..i havnt even clocked in and im yelled at i have the biggest fucking headache..my eyes hurt when i fuckin blink..my stomache hurt..i wasnt breathing right because cant today for some reason this shit is just hurting and cant breathe so i feel like im dying..but noone cares right?
i mean all i fuckin do is cause all these stupid ass fucking problems that have no reason to even have fukin happen.so im a dumbass who cant help but get mad when everything with him if eithr hurting or fuckin broken.all none of that shit helps.diffult and shit fuck.i mean it went good..fr a bout 2 seconds..toh did i mention i almost had an anxiety attack or whatever you wanna call it at work?ause thats fuckin fun huh shouldve just let it happen…and then my claustrophobia kicks into high gear ad i get sent home.i ccome home all happy thinking
yay im off eay i get to see my gf..which i dont..
not her ault tho she was nocked the eff out..it my fault thinking i would and being so positive.this is why i always think negative..when i start thinking positive nothing ever happens that i want..soo now im laying in bed all fuckin alone not talking to ANYONE because i lost my mood to be social.because i dont want fuck up anymore becaue im the biggest fuck up in the world.im tired of being a fuck up.oh well guess thats what im meant to be int his world…since i cant do anything right.
all this was because of today.it showed me how i fuck up.oh well