jut couldnt seem to get bettfucking fact it wont..and i know that all this shit will carry on til tomorrow.soo why was today sooo bad..hmm lets see i wake up late and im in a rush to work..i havnt even clocked in and im yelled at i have the biggest fucking headache..my eyes hurt when i fuckin blink..my stomache hurt..i wasnt breathing right because cant today for some reason this shit is just...
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monkay815: … Hm, I feel bad. Feel like it’s all my fault. I’m sorry that I failed to make this month a good month. I guess I kept your expectations and hopes up too high. I’m sorry I’m not doing a good job of making my time left in ghetto ass Palmdale with you memorable; I guess it can be… there you go blaming yourself..you need to stop cause if you do then people take advantage...
this has to be the worst month..
like really.nothing but fights..arguements..being sad.not in good moods…not being able to see oyu..getting in trouble..all bad shit happening.idk.not wha i expected for when you came back.its the complete opposite.but hopefully things get better before you leave me for years..idk guess we shall see son enough right?
feeling kinda homesick...elote or...
(via brinasa) bahaha your more mexican than me lol
who wouldve thought
not i. i never thought i could feel this way ever to be honest.thought this kinda feeling was in fairytales..
stop being so hard on yourself
jamiiiierae: Dear Me, Sometimes I wonder if you never made all those mistakes, everything would be perfect. Everything wouldn’t be all stupid and dumb sometimes. But I guess we have to learn from those mistakes that we make. I know that one day, I’ll get over it and just learn to forgive myself for stupid mistakes that shouldn’t have happened. Not that I’m being regretful; I just could have...
that tomorrows going to be nothing special.i bet that itll be like any other year.i mean i would look forward to it and everything but i dont.its just another day.its not a special day to me.lol.but oh well i kinda wih=sh i can just skip tomorrow and move to the day after
because idk what going to happen..and im scared to be honest..
To Be Honest
what happened today was probably a good thing..in a way. i realized how much i want you and love you me crying by just hearing you say what you said?i mean i dont cry and me just hearing that hurt my heart.i love you so much.i want you to realize that.nothings going to be easy for a while no wbut thats up to us to make it work and deal with it.i know how i act when we talk about you leaving im a...
babyy ..we are on top of the world cant stop us !!<3 10 months=)
being this close to you and growing more and more attached to you in the past 10 months then your gone off to college.and theres distance which we havnt had until last month.i dont want anything to change..ive seen it happen a lot and i just dont wanna end up like them..being emo and regreting things that happened and then being scared to be in another relationship kinda stuff.i just wanna end up...
im just realizing
that your leaving next month.and idk what to do so it doesnt mess me up.idk if i should just keep putting my all or kinda start to hold back so it doesnt hurt as much.all this is gona be new to me so idk how ima handle this whole situation honestly.idk i just know that sooner or later ima have to have a good convo with someone with good advice..
carmelisa is amazing [:
i give up
i really do.ima just stop talking and keep to myself.anything that bugs me is only going to bug me.its not gona leave my mouth.its not like it matters anyways.but fuck it.so from now on whatever happens happens…not going to put up a fight nomore… i mean i know i shouldnt just give in and all but yeah.oh well guess im a failure and a giver upper.
with this shit.
100 times better its like …. nvm im not even gonna say caus eyou know what bugs me and yet ou still tend to do it..idk i guess whayever